Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Journal Entry: July 28, 2004

Preface: I was about to enter my last month of pregnancy with Jack. My first baby. I laughed out loud when I read this the other day. I definitely had NO idea what motherhood was gonna look like. So, here is a journal entry from the soon-t0-be-Momma me. Naive. That's the best word I can think of to describe her.

July 28, 2004
10:22 am

Well, I can definitely say that the baby has taken over my life, and he/she isn't even born yet. (You have no idea about life takeover yet, sister.)

My schedule now revolves around eating, sleeping, resting, putting my feet up, and just trying to get comfortable around my bulging belly. I guess this is God's way of preparing me for when the baby arrives. (BAH HAHAHA! You can forget about sleeping, resting, and putting your feet up. You will be doing very, very little of that after the baby is born.)

My schedule will certainly not be my own then. (Amen and Amen!)

I find myself daydreaming even more now about what life will be like when our baby is finally here. I often go into the nursery and just imagine all of the little clothes being worn by our baby, and the toys played with. (Cringe. Did you really just end a sentence with a preposition? Anyway, those tiny little clothes? They are gonna create the biggest piles of laundry you've ever seen. And, those neatly stacked toys? Captain Destructor is on his way.)

Jason put together our glider rocker the other day. I imagine that I will spend many hours rocking our baby to sleep! (You will love rocking that precious baby, but at 3am, you'll be bawling your eyes out wishing you were in bed.)

It's so amazing that I love this baby so much, even now! (Oh, just wait 'til you see him!)

Jason was away last night. I couldn't sleep well at all. (And, you won't sleep well...for many, many months. Strike that. Years.)

He's coming home now and should be here soon. I'm so excited to see him. I hate it when he's away right now. I guess I just lean on him a lot right now for support in dealing with the challenges of being this pregnant. I'm so thankful that I have him. He's just an incredible person, and a fantastic husband. (Three babies and 4 more years of marriage later and I still feel the same about my hunky husband. Love you, babe!)

I'm off to clean up the house a little. That used to be so easy, but takes me quite a while now. Guess everything will for the next month. (I'm wondering what I had to clean up then that could have possibly taken so long. There were no toys or random dirty diapers or leaky renegade sippy cups or crusty plates coated with leftover mac 'n cheese.)

Ah, perspective. I suppose it's all about perspective.

That girl had no idea how beautiful her life - albeit exhausting, messy, and chaotic - was about to become.


  1. What fun to look back at that entry and see how much your life changed. I wish I had written things down back then!

  2. Sarah, Sarah, Sarah-- This was one creative post. Man did I laugh.

    The BAH HAHAHA! line after "putting my feet up" was my favorite part.

    Laughing... now I'm officially wondering why I'm going to upset my world again with an infant... oh yeah... because we just fall in love, don't we?

  3. LOL - oh Sarah, that was awesome. Thank you for the giggle! I agree with Emily - what a creative post!

  4. this was AWESOME, Sarah! when I'm pregnant someday I want to journal just so I can look back and laugh at how much I didn't know. what a great post!

  5. What fun to read. Ya know, I think we fill our time and thoughts with whatever is our priority at that time. I remember nearing the time of our wedding and thinking, "What did I ever do with my time before I had a wedding to plan?!?" Well, guess what, I found lots of somethings to do with my time when it was over. I guess that's just life....

  6. Beautiful and funny post Sarah dear! I so wish I had journaled when I was pregnant.

    My favorite line was when you wondered what you possibly needed to spend that much time cleaning. I am on a cleaning binge right now but it seems I take one step forward and two steps back. I was remembering the other day that I once did have a clean and organized house... I wasn't always like this...and that made me realize I won't always stay like this...some day the house will be clean and organized again and I know I will miss the three little ones that are reeking havoc on the organization now!

  7. This was a great post. It's so fun to really see what we were thinking at such a different time in our lives. Let's hope blogging does the same thing years from now when the kiddos are all busy with school!

  8. LOL! I think I was at least that naive - or maybe even more... ;)

    I wish I'd journaled more back then - it'd be fun to go back and read like this.

  9. That is so fun to be able to look back on your thoughts at that point in your life.
    Perspective is an amazing thing!!!

  10. Several emotions went through me as I read this post. Such a precious and tender time. I love the real time view of life.

    That line about cleaning made me laugh. Really loud.

    Sure think you are cool!

  11. oh isnt retrospect a beautiful thing! Ha! I always say to myself that I had NO idea how good i had it. But, then i look at all i have now and i say ...thank you Jesus!! Then I say, "ok, can I just have that old self back for just a weekend(or a week??), to catch up on sleep and a good book??" then I will go back to appreciating the me and life that i have now! Sounds like a fair deal to me!! LOL!

  12. This is just so funny - b/c I had so many of those same thoughts!!!

    Still need to look for my journal - I can only imagine! :)

  13. You make me wish I kept a journal. How cool to look back and see what your thoughts were at that time. What a fun and creative post. I had a rollercoaster of emotions reading your post. Laughing out loud at some things and crying remembering that time of excitement and anticipation and realizing my oldest baby will be 9 in a few months - where did that time go???

    Thanks Sarah for this post. You are such a gem!

  14. Perspective is a curious thing, isn't it? Very funny stuff.