Journal Entry: July 28, 2004

Preface: I was about to enter my last month of pregnancy with Jack. My first baby. I laughed out loud when I read this the other day. I definitely had NO idea what motherhood was gonna look like. So, here is a journal entry from the soon-t0-be-Momma me. Naive. That's the best word I can think of to describe her.
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July 28, 2004
10:22 am

Well, I can definitely say that the baby has taken over my life, and he/she isn't even born yet. (You have no idea about life takeover yet, sister.)

My schedule now revolves around eating, sleeping, resting, putting my feet up, and just trying to get comfortable around my bulging belly. I guess this is God's way of preparing me for when the baby arrives. (BAH HAHAHA! You can forget about sleeping, resting, and putting your feet up. You will be doing very, very little of that after the baby is born.)

My schedule will certainly not be my own then. (Amen and Amen!)

I find myself daydreaming even more now about what life will be like when our baby is finally here. I often go into the nursery and just imagine all of the little clothes being worn by our baby, and the toys played with. (Cringe. Did you really just end a sentence with a preposition? Anyway, those tiny little clothes? They are gonna create the biggest piles of laundry you've ever seen. And, those neatly stacked toys? Captain Destructor is on his way.)

Jason put together our glider rocker the other day. I imagine that I will spend many hours rocking our baby to sleep! (You will love rocking that precious baby, but at 3am, you'll be bawling your eyes out wishing you were in bed.)

It's so amazing that I love this baby so much, even now! (Oh, just wait 'til you see him!)

Jason was away last night. I couldn't sleep well at all. (And, you won't sleep well...for many, many months. Strike that. Years.)

He's coming home now and should be here soon. I'm so excited to see him. I hate it when he's away right now. I guess I just lean on him a lot right now for support in dealing with the challenges of being this pregnant. I'm so thankful that I have him. He's just an incredible person, and a fantastic husband. (Three babies and 4 more years of marriage later and I still feel the same about my hunky husband. Love you, babe!)

I'm off to clean up the house a little. That used to be so easy, but takes me quite a while now. Guess everything will for the next month. (I'm wondering what I had to clean up then that could have possibly taken so long. There were no toys or random dirty diapers or leaky renegade sippy cups or crusty plates coated with leftover mac 'n cheese.)
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Ah, perspective. I suppose it's all about perspective.

That girl had no idea how beautiful her life - albeit exhausting, messy, and chaotic - was about to become.